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Friday, May 06, 2005

Fri, 06 May 2005 06:22:07 GMT

chad michael murray annoys the SHIT out of me. he makes me want to puke.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 20:03:35 GMT

Something You've Been Missing Out On

It's been quite some time since I've stopped by to say hello and I figured it was an appropriate time, as i'm suffering from jet-lag and have run out of episodes of "Sex and the City"! However, I have been taking it easy at home and have really enjoyed getting to know myself, make some new friends, and adjust to a less-hectic life over the fall. And of course that meant not always being by my computer (not to mention, a few hardcore Xangers out there)... so sue me! Just Kidding. Although, it's truly been time well-spent.

Work Starbucks and Hollister has been officially established as my two very loyal bestfriends. I've been seeing these bestfriends every single mother fucking day, full-time, fucking NON-STOP. 13 hours a day, kids. I am restless from this astrocity we call LABOR. I'm enjoying it nonetheless.

San Jose I'm flying to San Jose in 2 weeks for New Years. I'm staying with Bao and James for the weekend. James purchased my ticket last night, so this is official! My first time flying... how incredible! And sometime during the weekend, they are driving me down to San Francisco, the pinnicle of the whole trip!

New York I also purchased a ticket to NEW YORK! I'm leaving on January 23 - 29! One whole damn week... isn't that awesome? I paid 250 for it. Pretty good deal huh? And get this, I'm staying in a ten room mansion. Can you believe it? My traveling buddy's boss' MOM owns the place and she is inviting us to stay with her for the week. So sweet... our trip is going to be absolutely MEMORABLE. Wish me luck!

Relationship Status Relationship Status I am currently single. I dated Devin on and off. Biggest mistake of my life. Hope he reads that.

Absent Sex Life The last time I had sex was a few months ago. Depressing, I know. I was about to have sex with this 32 year old French native yesterday, but I was running late. Ugh.

School I'm starting school on the 31 of January. I'm going to start working on my AA for Nursing. My goal is to be a Nurse Practitioner (which is the Master's Program). I can do it! I know I can.

Friends Friends I've been spending most of my time with Ngoc, David, and Thuy lately. They've become really close to me. People that I run to when I feel absent. People that will always be there no matter what. So much for my so called "bestfriends". I miss Julie... but something is keeping us apart. Carolyn... I don't know what to say. Have fun with your bestfriend Devin. I know you're never coming back. Keep it that way. You seem happier anyway.

Christmas I am so freakin stoked. I'm getting a laptop computer for Christmas! My brother is spoiling me to PIECES! But I deserve it, seeing that I spent close to 750 dollars on my family. I bought my sister a $215 Dooney and Bourke bag as well as a $100 jacket from Hollister. I bought my brother a $200 stereo. I bought my mom a $180 Back Massager and my dad a pair of shoes as well as an infinite number of warm clothes. That is WHY I deserve a laptop. Yay! And for the Christmas season... I hope to spend it with "Mark". The end.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 18:34:04 GMT

I start HOLLISTER at the Block tomorrow morning from 9am - 1pm. Please come and visit me... I'm so excited. Yay!

Monday, September 06, 2004

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 06:53:03 GMT

There is something about me that I HATE so much but I can't seem to put my thumb on it... I'm never happy.

Monday, August 23, 2004

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 09:35:37 GMT

Scoleciphobia - Fear of Worms

I struggle to neither fathom nor implore enough how Caterpillars scare the living daylights out of me. Yes, I am afraid of many things, for instance, ventriloquist's dummies! Now what in God’s name would create such a vile, torturous, wooden piece of creature? Is it the sole purpose of enriching the lives of retirement home patients? Perhaps last-minute entertainment for cheap-ass birthday bashes because the Jumping House was far too expensive? I kid you not, that ventriloquist dummy on Goosebumps had me wishing I were dead before it made its way through my bedroom door. Also, I mustn’t forget my fear of female genitalia, medical term "Eurotophobia". More reason to being a homosexual? Yes, indeed! Those vagina-things you females proudly carry and flaunt around must be tamed of it’s aggressiveness, danger, and whereabouts. I’m just serving a purposeful caution is all! I mean, who knows what Vagina’s can do to you! Once you dive into one of those Vaginas, you’d be missing for days. Your face will appear on the milk cartons, I swear to you.

Ventriloquist's dummies, Vaginas? Such a mild, better yet worthless approach to what I define as a Phobia. Now Caterpillars, that is a Phobia! Why? Because it just is! For those that have failed to subscribe to my Xanga, I’d like for you to know that this is a subsequent entry to the previous one I wrote way back when. Caterpillars! Why must these vomit-colored, wiggly things exist? What is their purpose? Is this a mean, cruel joke God is playing on me? Because apparently, I’m not laughing. And what is with this whole metamorphosis bullshit they are trying to pull? Turning into a butterfly is not and will not be a compensation for their already established ugliness. Why? Because butterflies are ugly as well! So stop having sex. Reproducing would only make me hate you little bitches even more. When I’m flipping channels, I make an effort to avoid the Discovery and Travel channel. Even the sight of a caterpillar can drive me off the wall. My pulse literally halts for a split second, as I try to recollect myself from such damage. One time, I bit into an Apricot and found a helpless, naked caterpillar curled up in a ball nested in between the outlines of the seed. Mortified beyond my wits, I threw the Apricot across the living room. I honestly couldn’t stop shaking! Haha.

God, I live a crazy life. Are you afraid of anything?

Friday, July 16, 2004

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 08:06:12 GMT

Infidelity / My first Threesome / Hopeless Romantic

Boyfriend? HA! I rue the very day that piece of shit walked into my life. What did he do to have angered me so? Oh, I mean… nothing really… but I hate him because I’m bored.

We are no longer together. One envious, hopeless romantic might ask, “How long did these love birds LAST?” 2-MOTHER-FUCKIN-DAYS. COUNT THEM… 1… 2. Not zero, not three… TWO. I didn’t even get to have sex with him, let alone give him a blow job in a restroom at a local eatery. What the hell is that?

Ugh! It’s infidelity, NOT ME. I’d like to think that INFIDELITY encompasses a mind of its own, in which I have no control over whatsoever. Sure, MAYBE it’s an act of infamy and shame but if your life finally approaches the stage of sex-deprivation (especially from your own boyfriend), you’ve got to step forward on your brand new sling-back Jimmy Choo’s and “do something about it”.

Or maybe you can just set blame on “the INFIDELITY” for being so over-zealous for what, according to the grapevine, amounted to as “cheap-sex”. I am to settle with the Geisha of the Japan dammit, the co-owner of an International Courtesan Inc. frequently visited by Elite members and A-List celebrities, and join ranks with my prosti-tooty friends.

And, yes, you are DAMN RIGHT I DID SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

What did you do, Mr. I like to suck cock in public restaurants? Well, I had about the worst THREESOME with my fellow lads David and Chris. And that’s being modest! It isn’t even REMOTELY fair to have rated this THREESOME to be the worst, seeing that it was my ONLY threesome, but if you can’t trust me as a loyal and faithful boyfriend, at least do me the honor and trust me on this.

Signs of BAD SEX:

“You just kicked my face!”
“No, no, no. Wait for me. I’m almost there! Wait.”
“Could you move to the other side, I don’t have room!”
“What do we do now?”

When you’re caught staring at the cheap-paint job of your opportunists bedroom wall or your cell-phone eagerly awaiting a phone call from your best friend or maybe even your MOM in order to be distracted or given a legit reason to stop the so-called ”business”, you then start to realize how boring sex really is. Sex doesn’t make me belt out high vocal pitches like Whitney Houston or Mariah Carey, sex isn’t at par with buying a new Mandy Moore CD, sex is truly senseless and for the most part, emotionless.

I want to be with someone special. Believe me, I do. I want to see myself seated at a local Coffee Shop or Library with my long-term boyfriend enjoying a day out doing some homework or catching up on other college inquiries. I want to see myself cooking dinner with my boyfriend at his apartment as we converse about our daily modules and what not, and afterwards, we’d have movie night as we pay more attention to each other than the movie itself. This isn’t fairy tale land, boys and girls. This can be reality… my ultimate reality. But I sit here on my computer writing to you a simple note… expressing my anger and bitterness towards my love life. I am lonely. I am jealous of most.

I just wish I had someone… and maybe my whoring days will be over. Give me some advice. Any will do...

I promise.

Thursday, June 24, 2004

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 18:55:36 GMT

DUMBASS NAMING HABITS

Sometimes people really agitate me. Why? Because of their self-asserted "notorious" NAMES. At work, I stumbled upon an attractive young woman who found it CHARMING to spell her name Kim with an h, a y, and two ms. Excuuuuuuuuuuuuse ME "Khymm", let me serve your fuckin frappacino in a silver platter and serve you chocolate-coated grapes while I'm at it. "Khymm"? Really is that even remotely NECESSARY?

And this is especially targeted to "a few" Gay men, not all. These "particular" Gay men LIVE to strut, whether it be their Abercrombie outterwear complimented by a diamond-studded belt (and I especially disgust how people find such a coordination of fashion to be "unique" and "different". Ugh, speak of tacky-ness), their drawn in eyebrows and make-up compliances, fake Louis Vuitton wallets and accessories (this ENTHUSIASIM with materialistic venues and what not is shamefully bordering on MANIA and to my utmost surprise, it still FAILS to inspire me), a series of/or even ALBUMS of Digital Camera pictures taken in every single profile/degree/angle (think geometry), and last but certainly NOT the very least, their choice of NAME modifications. Eww, eww, eww, eww, EWW!!!

One might ask, "Is Thien just jealous because he doesn't meet the legitimate criteria of a Traditional Gay Male? Is Thien bitter because he was bestowed a foreign, outlandish, and seemingly "retarded" name. Boys, as hypocritical as it may sound, I'm keeping my name.

I mean, let us sit back with a mojo cup of Herbal tea and contemplate on realism. When a homosexual boy named John deliberately suggests others to address his name as "J-h-o-n", you start to fathom the consistency of this "i-need-major-attention-virus". Realistically, people wouldn't give a rats ass about your name. However, if one is unfortunate to be the offspring of some half-assed - i'm an "in-crowd" mother who plans not to settle for simplicity, but to differentiate and denigrate my sons/daughters name in order to win over all praise, envy, and glory from women of future infertility,... then PERHAPS you're just born screwed. haha.

Self-absorbed Gay Boy: Hey! My name is Ryne.
Anonymous: Ryne?
Self-absorbed Gay Boy: Oh, it is pronounced Ryan.
Anonymous: Oh wow, that's cool. Wow, I like the way you spell it. That is sooooooo cool! I wish my mom experimented with my name. Omg, you're so lucky!
Self-absorbed Gay Boy: (as he belittle's himself) Oh! *laughs* It's nothing... really it isn't. :)

Thien: HAHAHAHAHA! Don't make me puke!

The point is, it really SHOULDN'T concern me whether or not these people enjoy altering their "precious" names. They could do whatever they want. Although, they should keep in mind that people like "me" will be around to put them down. :) The glory of it all...

Monday, June 21, 2004

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 18:13:52 GMT

"OMG guys! I think I have gonnherea or one of those STD thingys!"

FIRST THOUGHTS:

"... maybe I'll become a priest and contribute my heart and soul to the hungry children of Ethiopia with my endearing charm and especially killer smile. Yeah! Umm food? ... what food?"

"... maybe I’ll begin shooting heroin into my veins with syringes I randomly find in a dumpster behind a medical facility. Seeing that I might of contracted HIV, I thought it would be best to take full advantage of the situation, right? I mean, have a little fuckin-fun, SINCE MY LIFE WOULD NOW BE CUT SHORT 50 GOD-DAMNED YEARS!!!”

"... maybe I'll stand outside Wal-mart or something and pass out flyers supporting “Sex Conservation”. For generations, sex has been USED and ABUSED! We need to band together like hippies on crack, hold hands, and fight the cause like normal, CIVILIZED, SEX-CRAZED adults. We NEED to conserve this “NATURAL RESOURCE”!!! Yeah! Maybe I’ll do that..."

"... maybe I’ll just sit myself quiet amongst my mandy-fide room, dose myself with an enormous bowl of Neapolitan, preferably Mint-Chocolate chip, ice-cream! If this “so-called” STD becomes my one-way ticket to the fast lanes of SEX DEPRIVATION, then HOPEFULLY, in spite of my ultimate knack for deep-throat penetration and up-against-the-wall action, JUST MAYBE this Neapolitan ice-cream will compensate for the lack of sex. Yeah? You think?"

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 23:39:37 GMT

HOLY SHIT!!! MANDY MOORE ANSWERED MY QUESTION!!!

Ok so I logged onto www.m-moore.net just checking to see if the host updated her website or not. She updated that there was going to be a LIVE CHAT with Mandy on MSN CHAT. I thought to myself... heck I'm just going to check it out. I waited an hour and thirty minutes for her to come in the chat. (it was worth it though). The procedure was to ask questions to Mandy! But the drawback was that there would be like thousands UPON thousands of questions already submitted! So I just asked her a question, knowing that the chances of her answering is one in a million. Literally, there were people from SPAIN, ITALY, CANADA... it was all over the place!

AND SHE ANSWERED MY QUESTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T BREATHE! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!

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MSN CHAT

DishDiva says: Mandy, welcome back. It's great to see you again! How've you been?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Oh my gosh, I've been great, happy, life is good!

DishDiva says: Well, I have to tell you and I think you know that I LOVED "Saved!"

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Thank you so much!

DishDiva says: What kind of reaction are you getting from fans for "Saved!"?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I'm really proud of the movie so it's just exciting to have that buzz out there and to have people come up to you and say they love the movie since it's not out there yet. It's going wide on Friday.

DishDiva says: Tell us a little about Hilary Faye.

DishDiva says: I know you've never heard that question before.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Mac and I are doing a tour this week and we get that question a lot. She's sweet and overzealous and steadfast in her religious beliefs and using her faith as an excuse for her actions and manipulation of her friends. It was fun to play the bad girl.

DishDiva says: Let's talk a bit about working with Macauley Culkin. What is he really like?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Mac, having had all the success he's had in his life could be any number of things, but he couldn't be more down to earth and has the most wicked sense of humor. He was cracking us up on the set all the time.

DishDiva says: When I spoke with you and the cast last month you told me about the story of throwing things off the balcony. Can you tell the fans about this?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: It started with Patrick teaching me how to spit and slowly evolved into throwing marshmallows and dumplings. It was fun and silly and we were acting like 4th graders and it was fun to see if we could hit the targets we wanted to.

DishDiva says: Let's see what the audience is asking.

gailkitty in Onstage_1 asks: What do you mean by "it's going wide on Friday"?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: "Saved" is only in about 20 theaters right now and on Friday it will be in about 600, so it will be released to a wider audience.

banglebabe1 in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy, I love your new website design at www.mandymoore.com and the official infopop message board on it. It's all really cool. My question is, how scary or exciting is it to be signed to a new record label?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Super excited to be at a place where people are excited to have me and to feel a part of a team. I'm curious and excited to see how the last record will influence the music I'll be recording in the future.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I'm on Sire Warner Brothers.

banglebabe1 in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy, what musical direction are you planning on going in for your next cd?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I think it's going to continue in the same vein as the last record. I've been writing music with friends and I'm excited to sing my own words. I feel I have somthing to write about and say.

mmooreNET in Onstage_1 asks: Will "Saved!" be released in Canada?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I'm sure it will be if it's not already. I think we've done interviews to Canadian cities which leads me to believe it's going to be released there. Depending on how the movie does, will determine how many theaters it will be released in.

RisingOnline in Onstage_1 asks: Hey, I'm Raul. I'm from Barcelona (Spain). Mandy, if you had to choose a character of your movies (Lana, Jamie, Haily, Anna, Hilary) that was looked more like your personality, what would you choose? Perhaps to none of them in fact.

»»Bare»Naked«Girl«« in Onstage_1 asks: I think you're an amazing singer and actress, and I just wanted to say I love you you're my idol. You're such an insperation for young girls!

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I would like to think that I have a bit of Jamie, Haily and Anna, a little of all three.

ThenaThenaBoBena in Onstage_1 asks: Hey Mandy! When will the "Saved!" soundtrack be out?
DishDiva says: I hope there will be. The music is awesome.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: If the movie continues to go well they have batted around the idea of a soundtrack which is great because the music is stellar.

Angelis4Christ in Onstage_1 asks: How do you feel about being considered a role model or having people look up to you?? We are actually the same age and I look up to you. Is does that weird you out?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: It doesn't weird me out at all. I'm so flattered and taken aback that people look up to me and what I've accomplished. I take every day, day by day and not take it for granted.

DishDiva says: Is there pressure being a role model? Do you always have to watch what you are doing?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I think, obviously, a certain amount of responsibility comes with it and you keep that in the back of your mind, but I don't let it dictate my life and what you see is what you get. I guess I'm just lucky in that sense.

MrsShaneWest04 in Onstage_1 asks: Hi Mandy, im Serena and im your number 1 fan in italy! I was wondering if you are planning a european trip anytime soon and if u think ur next album will be released over here too? Thank you!

Mandy_Moore_Live says: There's no trip to Europe planned right now. The next record will definitely be released in Europe and I'll tour as well.

tracyjeffultraspy in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy, were you a dork in middle school?
DishDiva says: That is so hard to believe.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: YES! And I'm still a dork, I'm a proud geek.

DishDiva says: Every time I meet you you are so well put together.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: ME?! Oh gosh. Visit me on a regular day, like today, I'm sitting in sweat pants. (laughs)

dammitzthien in Onstage_1 asks: mandy! you rock my socks! do you find comfort in watching movies by yourself? I personally enjoy it, as tacky as it may seem. It's good to have time ALONE after taking a final exam or working an 8 hour shift!

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I love spending time by myself. I used to be really fearful of it but I have this new chapter of my life unfold over the last few months and I feel more confident and more like a woman. It's a really good time and I think it comes from spending time with

Mandy_Moore_Live says: myself and getting to know myself better, as cheesy as it sounds. (laughs)

mynameisnotfunn in Onstage_1 asks: What should we expect from "Romance and Cigarettes", do you play a villian? is it a musical flick?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: It's a musical, I play the daughter of Susan Sarandon and James Gandolfini. It's not a huge part, I get engaged, and the movie isn't really about me but what a great experience to work with John Turturo and the rest of the cast and take a little away with

Mandy_Moore_Live says: me.

CLUTCHXR in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy how are your puppy dogs doing?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: My doggies are good!! They are in L.A. right now and I miss them. They are good, they are good boys.

MegaMan22_2004 in Onstage_1 asks: Hi Mandy, i'm Travis from Florida. When i grow up, i wanna become just like you. What is it like to become a singer?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Thank you very much.It's amazing to have all the opportunities I've been lucky enough to have with music and film. You just roll with the punches, it's not all been icing on the cake but everything happens for a reason.

iamcurse10 in Onstage_1 asks: Hey, Mandy...I hear Michael Stipe is kinda grouchy. Is this true? I certainly hope not.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: He's not grouchy at all! He's a great man and great taste in films, it was fun to have him around on set. I've only seen his passionate and wonderful side. He's so intelligent and hip and always knows what's happening.

Litrocken1 in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy, which movie character did you enjoy playing most of all?

tracyjeffultraspy in Onstage_1 asks: Sounds to me like the movie is pointing a finger at artificial Christianity. Is it true?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I would have to say I had a lot of fun playing Hilary Faye and Jamie in "A Walk To Remember."

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Pointing a finger at hypocrisy. I think the film is sweet and has a good Christian message. I think people need to realize there's a good message and no finger pointing.

ForêvêrFålling in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy, are all the songs you write, from personal experiences?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Yes. 100%

Zekkus1 in Onstage_1 asks: I was wondering how often you travel and what were some of your favorite places in the world to go?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Travel a little for work. I love Australia and I love London as well.

DishDiva says: If you had one day to do anything you'd like what would be your ideal day?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: That can change on a daily basis but today it would consist of being near water, the beach or lake, being in warm weather and people I love. And being spontaneous, hiking, sky diving, or crafts outside (laughs).

Mandy_Moore_Live says: It's really warm today but beautiful.

italianhendrix in Onstage_1 asks: Mandy, how do you deal with not having any privacy?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: I feel like I have a lot of privacy. It's not something I think about too often. I feel like I'm lucky to be left alone in a sense and I'm not in the tabloids.

DishDiva says: Is there a place where they leave you alone the most?

DishDiva says: Is it surreal when you see yourself on a tabloid?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Anywhere really outside of L.A. aren't bad. There are bits of New York you expect it but in L.A. they will follow you everywhere. I saw a picture of my house on the internet the other day, the one thing I didn't want to happen.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: It's surreal because most of what they write is untrue. When it has to do with your personal life and it's untrue and you want to speak out, it gives them satisfaction and it's something I've had to deal with the last few months and I'm doing ok. You live

Mandy_Moore_Live says: and learn.

ICEIBLUE in Onstage_1 asks: What was it like to work with such a great cast?

DishDiva says: Eva was incredible.

BabyLove80JR in Onstage_1 asks: Hey Mandy, can you tell us a little bit about your new clothing line, MBlem?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Oh my gosh. Everybody in the movie is just unbelieveable from Jenna, to Eva, to Patrick, to Mac. One of the reasons I wanted to do this was for the amazing cast and what I could learn from them.

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Thanks, it's something small and quiet that I didn't expect to come out because it's not like a J. Lo line. I'm a jeans and t-shirt girl and have been searching for the perfect t-shirt so they will be plain with small things on them with my favorite

Mandy_Moore_Live says: lyrics and they'll be making their way to the stores in the next few weeks.

DishDiva says: What are some of your favorite lines?

DishDiva says: Mandy, where will the t-shirts be available?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: "Hard to get by on a smile." and "Gonna getcha getcha getcha." It's fun to do and I did it selfishly because I wanted them for myself and some of the profits will go to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.

DishDiva says: Mandy, what are some of your favorite songs?

Mandy_Moore_Live says: It's constantly changing "Last Goodbye" by Jeff Buckley and "Nobody's Crying" (I'm checking my iPod) "Another White Dash" and "Free Men in Paris" by Joni Mitchell and "It's Too Late."

Mandy_Moore_Live says: That's what I've been listening to the last little bit.

DishDiva says: From all of us here at MSN Live, thanks for chatting with fans about "Saved!"

Mandy_Moore_Live says: Thank you so much for you continuing support. I hope you'll go see "Saved!" because I think it's an important film to go see. Visit me on my only offical message board on my website.

DishDiva says: Thanks for joining us today on MSN Live!

DishDiva says: Thanks to Ash and Fredia for hosting today!

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She TOTALLY made my frickin day. I will remember this FOREVER. I'm still at awe... haha I LOVE MANDY!!! I am so happy. lol

SHE IS MY GODDESS

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 04:13:27 GMT

I MISS YOU JUJEE! MUAH! LICK!